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foxes_and_fireflies) wrote2013-03-07 03:42 pm
foxes_and_fireflies) wrote2013-03-07 03:42 pm
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002. Taking control
So I've made a conscious decision to try to take control of my life again. I'm realizing more and more that things have spiraled out of control. I've spent too much time on my couch with my cats, in front of my computer or watching Netflix. Although, Netflix really has saved me. When my migraines get bad I have to take migraine medicine. Though it takes care of the headache I can't drive, so leaving the house isn't an option. I can't really function to do much else, so... Netflix it is. However, this has been a double-edged sword, as Netflix has also become a crutch when my depression has gotten out of hand and I find that my day consists of "Wake up. Come downstairs. Sit on couch. Open laptop. Turn on TV. Marathon random series on Netflix while surfing Tumblr." Taking control is going to be a slow process, but I feel it can be done. I look back to the way I used to be. I think I can get back there again. More on that later.
Yesterday I was able to do the dishes. Today, though I had a migraine, I was able to get a load of laundry done. I'm about to dye my hair which is something I've put off too long. I think the last time I colored it was... October? I usually keep it red, but with my depression it's really hard to keep the motivation to do anything. On top of that, hunching over the tub to wash out the dye is really not appealing when I'm dealing with neck, back, and knee pain from my fibro. Going to get it professionally done hasn't been an option because getting the motivation to leave the house has been difficult to say the least. I can maybe motivate myself to make an appointment, but when the day comes closer, I will eventually find an excuse to cancel it.
So, off to dye the hairs. Wish me luck! :)
Yesterday I was able to do the dishes. Today, though I had a migraine, I was able to get a load of laundry done. I'm about to dye my hair which is something I've put off too long. I think the last time I colored it was... October? I usually keep it red, but with my depression it's really hard to keep the motivation to do anything. On top of that, hunching over the tub to wash out the dye is really not appealing when I'm dealing with neck, back, and knee pain from my fibro. Going to get it professionally done hasn't been an option because getting the motivation to leave the house has been difficult to say the least. I can maybe motivate myself to make an appointment, but when the day comes closer, I will eventually find an excuse to cancel it.
So, off to dye the hairs. Wish me luck! :)